A lady from our church started a home group a few weeks ago. Among so many other things I'm learning, it has highlighted the importance of spending time alone with God before the day gets going, putting all your worries, fears, and insecurities in His hands. Letting him handle your heartbreak so you can function.
When I get up early to have that beloved time I'm much less discombobulated, emotional, and just downright crabby. The last few weeks have exposed some things within myself, that I didn't know I was struggling with. It is a daily struggle, and each day comes with new struggles.
Some days, all these happenings really do get the best of me. I lose my ability to take the next step. I can't breath. It feels like my whole world is crashing down around me. Despite KNOWING that I'm surrounded by love on more sides than not, feeling completely alone and abandoned.
I'm realizing that feeling that way is OK. Feel it. Pay attention to it. Watch it go by. Then, get your chin up, and keep moving forward.
Anyway, Deb showed me this song, yesterday. It fits. :)
