A note for you, and you, and you...etc.

I need to see these things written down so I can let go, and move on...and possibly get some points across to a few people who's communication with me has been prohibited. It's hard to keep any emotion locked up for any amount of time. So this being my safe place, here it is. If this is to you, you'll know it.

1) It breaks my heart that I haven't seen you in so long. I want to hug you and not let go. I want to cry tears of joy on your shoulder. I took fore-granted how much you mean to me. I miss you. I love you. I can't wait to see you.

2) Thank you for holding my hand through this. I'm so thankful to have someone that throughly understands what's going on. Your kind words and advice keep me moving forward. Thank you, again.

3) Isaiah keeps asking for you. He cries when we tell him you have gone away and won't be back for awhile. I know he'll squeeze you half to death when he sees you next. Soon, is what we're holding on to.

4) I hope you know the grief and pain you've caused. I love you still, but that doesn't change anything. Next time, contemplate the consequences of your actions...before you act. You're smart. We know this, but this is stupid. Stupid and ridiculous. You know how you should have gone about this, but yet you didn't and now there is more heartbreak then you can ever imagine.

5) If we see each other in the near future, I suggest you run...and possibly hide. You've torn what I love the most in half and I can't say I'll forgive and forget anytime soon.

6) I admire your ability to hold on to the bigger picture. I can't imagine how you're feeling right now. This will be over sooner or later. Sooner is what I'm focusing on.