A New Beginning

This past Sunday, I was baptized. I chose to do so because I want to start over. I'm starting fresh. I've felt the tugging to do so for a long time, and I've pushed it out of my mind over and over again. Since I made the decision a couple months ago (putting it off only because the baptistery is freaking cold, even during the summer) I've noticed changes in my life.

Little changes. But it's the little things that count, right? I've noticed that I look for the positive in everything...and everyone. Sometimes it's more challenging than I'd like, but now it's just habit. And it feels like God is closer than before. If that's even possible. For several months I felt very alone, even though I had numerous people to count on. It just didn't seem like enough. Upon deciding to claim His Love, it feels like He is pouring His Love through me...I'm His vessel now. To me, God isn't just there when I need him or when I pray. He's there beside me 24/7. He is a hedge around me. (I remember daddy referring to God's hedge of protection around us, as we were growing up...this seems like a good analogy.) He is guiding my steps, and guiding my words. I can feel it.

I saw a quote that seems appropriate here. "There are two types of people in this world. One says "Good lord. It's morning!!" The other says "Good morning, Lord."" I want to be the latter. The kind of woman that keeps God close to her. The kind of woman that shows Love in everything she does. Obviously, this is easier said than done. I know I can't just say I'm going to do this, then keep living my life like usual. It takes constantly reminding myself to walk in love. It takes analyzing everything I do and deciding if this is best showing Love.

My being baptized is a declaration that I've chosen God and His never ending Love. But it's more than that. It's my signification that I am forever cloaked in His Love, Grace, Mercy and Protection.