#1) the number people I love
#2) the number of people that love me
#3) the amount of heart breaks that occur
#4) how much I miss their dear faces
#5) tears - sometimes they just keep falling
#6) the constant encouragement I am receiving
#7) God's ever constant love
...these are just a few. Some are happy, some not so much. Some just make me cry uncontrollably. However, I've discovered that by holding in all my negative emotions, I can't express my positive emotions, either. I've attempted to not handle my negative feelings, to not give them any attention. Until lately. I haven't been able to control them. Or maybe I've just given up. Sometimes trying to keep your emotions at bay is just down right painful. Also my emotions just happen to express themselves via my tear ducts. So...I've been crying a lot. Maybe because I'm a hormonal basket case. But that's besides the point.
Funny enough, I'm happier though. More alive, somehow. My Theory; by blocking one of my emotional 'rivers' I've blocked them all. Just a theory though. So now that I've unblocked those negative emotions, all my emotions can flow. Not smoothly, yet...but at least we're moving again.
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